Time Travel

The past seems so sweet
as if it were just a dream
so fun so surreal,
as if I could still feel
the uncomfort of the matress
the coldness of the floor
the awkwardness of the shower
the chalk on the door
what it was like to be a freshman
to live life away from home
to leave behind my family
to find a family of my own
a group of brothers and sisters
forever connected one way or another
a group of silly college students
where I sometimes was the mother
And now I look back on this past
reliving each day in a slew of dreams
wishing to go back, if only for a moment
But time travel is harder than it seems.

I don't even know...

On today
Off tomorrow
Other than now
There's no then
There's no how
Just a why
Just a where
No today
No tomorrow
No other time than now
We'll never see tomorrow
Tomorrow isn't real

Why's don't exist
For the when's are fickle
And all we yearn for
Are answers
But we may never get
The answers we need
For not even the answers are real.

It's all surreal
It's all a blur
It's all a lie

A lie to keep us quiet
A lie to keep us confused.

A lie to the why we need answered.

My Future Depends On It

those who know me
think they know me well
those who control me
think they I'm under a spell
but what I'm about to do
no one's gonna see it coming
gonna start over anew
gonna hit the ground running
cuz I'm fed up, over this shit
I'm fed up and this is it
I want out of this field and into my passion
I want to know what it's like
I want to feel satisfaction
at the end of the day
I want to kneel down and pray
and thank God for letting me see
what I want to truly be
for the rest of my life
I just wanna know this is right
cuz at the end of the day
no matter what they say
I gotta stay true to me
be what I wanna be
my future depends on it.

just a bracelet

It's just a bracelet
tied 'round the wrist
of hopeful young lady

They say it will bring love
to the hopeful young lady
with it tied 'round the wrist

Wear it 'til it falls off
Wear it 'til it breaks
Wear it 'til love comes along

The hopeful young lady
with it tied 'round the wrist
wears it with hope

Hope that the superstition is true
Hope that it will help her find love
Hope that love will find her

She'll wear it 'til it breaks
but really,
It's just a bracelet.

Countless

An hour is 60 minutes
but when that hour is spent with you
It seems countless
To look into your eyes
as they look back into mine
creates a feeling so real
it stops time.
hold me close
with your arms so strong
and I will never let go.
so take these countless hours
we spend together
and lets never let them stop.
lets make this last forever.

Nerf Guns are Fun

they just are

just one of the guys

i am a girl
just one of the guys
my persona
is just a disguise

i truly dream
the girly dreams
though that would never
seem to be

i want a ring
just like she does
i want a family
just like she does
i need to be held
just like she does
i need to be loved
just like she does

you wouldn't guess
i truly wish to be
for him nothing but the best
the one to make him happy

i'm just a girl
but who am i
to all of them
i'm just one of the guys