I don't even know...

On today
Off tomorrow
Other than now
There's no then
There's no how
Just a why
Just a where
No today
No tomorrow
No other time than now
We'll never see tomorrow
Tomorrow isn't real

Why's don't exist
For the when's are fickle
And all we yearn for
Are answers
But we may never get
The answers we need
For not even the answers are real.

It's all surreal
It's all a blur
It's all a lie

A lie to keep us quiet
A lie to keep us confused.

A lie to the why we need answered.

My Future Depends On It

those who know me
think they know me well
those who control me
think they I'm under a spell
but what I'm about to do
no one's gonna see it coming
gonna start over anew
gonna hit the ground running
cuz I'm fed up, over this shit
I'm fed up and this is it
I want out of this field and into my passion
I want to know what it's like
I want to feel satisfaction
at the end of the day
I want to kneel down and pray
and thank God for letting me see
what I want to truly be
for the rest of my life
I just wanna know this is right
cuz at the end of the day
no matter what they say
I gotta stay true to me
be what I wanna be
my future depends on it.