Halloween

someday
i will get to be the person
who i really think is me...

until then
i'll keep wearing this costume
like it's Halloween...

Time Travel

The past seems so sweet
as if it were just a dream
so fun so surreal,
as if I could still feel
the uncomfort of the matress
the coldness of the floor
the awkwardness of the shower
the chalk on the door
what it was like to be a freshman
to live life away from home
to leave behind my family
to find a family of my own
a group of brothers and sisters
forever connected one way or another
a group of silly college students
where I sometimes was the mother
And now I look back on this past
reliving each day in a slew of dreams
wishing to go back, if only for a moment
But time travel is harder than it seems.

I don't even know...

On today
Off tomorrow
Other than now
There's no then
There's no how
Just a why
Just a where
No today
No tomorrow
No other time than now
We'll never see tomorrow
Tomorrow isn't real

Why's don't exist
For the when's are fickle
And all we yearn for
Are answers
But we may never get
The answers we need
For not even the answers are real.

It's all surreal
It's all a blur
It's all a lie

A lie to keep us quiet
A lie to keep us confused.

A lie to the why we need answered.

My Future Depends On It

those who know me
think they know me well
those who control me
think they I'm under a spell
but what I'm about to do
no one's gonna see it coming
gonna start over anew
gonna hit the ground running
cuz I'm fed up, over this shit
I'm fed up and this is it
I want out of this field and into my passion
I want to know what it's like
I want to feel satisfaction
at the end of the day
I want to kneel down and pray
and thank God for letting me see
what I want to truly be
for the rest of my life
I just wanna know this is right
cuz at the end of the day
no matter what they say
I gotta stay true to me
be what I wanna be
my future depends on it.

just a bracelet

It's just a bracelet
tied 'round the wrist
of hopeful young lady

They say it will bring love
to the hopeful young lady
with it tied 'round the wrist

Wear it 'til it falls off
Wear it 'til it breaks
Wear it 'til love comes along

The hopeful young lady
with it tied 'round the wrist
wears it with hope

Hope that the superstition is true
Hope that it will help her find love
Hope that love will find her

She'll wear it 'til it breaks
but really,
It's just a bracelet.

Countless

An hour is 60 minutes
but when that hour is spent with you
It seems countless
To look into your eyes
as they look back into mine
creates a feeling so real
it stops time.
hold me close
with your arms so strong
and I will never let go.
so take these countless hours
we spend together
and lets never let them stop.
lets make this last forever.

Nerf Guns are Fun

they just are

just one of the guys

i am a girl
just one of the guys
my persona
is just a disguise

i truly dream
the girly dreams
though that would never
seem to be

i want a ring
just like she does
i want a family
just like she does
i need to be held
just like she does
i need to be loved
just like she does

you wouldn't guess
i truly wish to be
for him nothing but the best
the one to make him happy

i'm just a girl
but who am i
to all of them
i'm just one of the guys

Where Are You?

Somewhere you are there, I know it.
Someday you will find me, I hope.
If I find you, I will know it.
You will be everything I want.
You will be my everything.
Do I know you already?
Perhaps from a class?
Advanced Calculus? Spanish? Chemistry Lab?
Do you know me already?
I am waiting for you.
Should we meet on an island,
Let it be our island.
Should we meet on the street,
Let it be our street.
I am here, waiting for you.
You just need to find me
And tell me you're mine.

Every day

And everyday I will live
As if it were my last.

B

Blank, Blankity Blank Blank
Bewildered by barriers
Before broken brains
Blocking blackened bits
Between bridges
Beckoning beginnings
Before backwards becomes
Tomorrow.

Get Me Out

i kinda want out...
i need to get out...
i need to not have a million things to do...
i want to be free...
i want to be able to just be me...

damn...
it looks like its just another night
filled with day dreaming
while im not even able to sleep
cuz the work load never stops
and the fun never begins...

Come Here...

When you're around, I keep my cool, but on the inside, I'm a mess.
Don't stand so close, because you might feel my heart racing.
But don't stand so far, because I might fall apart without you near.

A Weak Strength

I've been so strong for so long
I'm getting weaker and weaker
Slowly crumbling
Under my own strength...

You think I'm tough
You think I'll make it through
But chances are my facade
Has got the best of you...

Keep saying I'm strong
Keep saying I'm tough
But your kind words
Just aren't enough...

I need to re-prioritize and organize
This mess I call life
So as to not crumble
Under my own strength.

Just a Hug in a Dream

You make my dreams feel real
Next time you hug me, never let go.
Please.

Your Eyes, My Heart

I yearn to look into your eyes when we talk
and make that intimate connection,
But I fear you will see straight into my heart
and realize it beats for you.

sit and wait...

Imma just sit and wait here for a lil while

Imma just sit and wait here for a lil smile

Imma just sit and wait here for a sign from above

Imma just sit and wait here for my chance at LOVE

what echoes in every starry eyed girl's heart...

i wish i saw more of you
i wish you cared for me the way i care for you
i wish your hugs would never end
i wish i was more than just your friend.

Open Your Eyes

creativity lacks in those who lack the ability to see the world through their eyes but not the eyes that you and I with glasses and paint choose to disguise but more so the eyes of the mind hidden beneath the skin and covered in lies which is why they cannot see the world through their eyes.

a quote, a line, a film

"I just like being a piece of furniture in your weird life" - Juno