from Steve

So I was paroosing through my friend Steve's blog and decided to take this "Rate my Life" thing he had taken. I was curious. I kinda wish I hadn't taken it... :-/ see for yourself...

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.1
Mind:	5.6
Body:	4.5
Spirit:	7.7
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	0
Finance:	7.9
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

necesito

the need for positive

the need to breathe
the need to live
the need to love
the need to accept
the need to embrace

the need for negative

the need to criticize
the need to want
the need to hurt
the need to reject
the need to ignore

the need to be

the need to be happy
the need to be sad
the need to be angry
the need to be loved
the need to be content


the need to need.

...and at the end of the day, I will try to smile.

The History of Math

I'm
in class
lethargic
melting away
my body is trapped
my feet melt to the floor
my legs attach to the chair
my body hunched over the desk
as it blends to its structural form.
My soul screaming as it tries to get out.

_cry_

wet
cold
salty
drying
falling
failing
wishing
hoping
dreaming
cliche
stupid
grow-up

NOW

Sight

I wish you could see what I see...




and how I see it.

Oh, it's nothing.

I find myself sitting and staring into an open, white space
Nothing to clog the senses
Nothing to force defenses
Just
White
Just
Space
Nothingness and it feels so great; so inspiring; so refreshing
The nothingness courses through my veins

I find myself sitting and staring into a closed, dark room
Can't see what lies ahead
Can't see what surrounds
Just
Dark
Just
Space
Nothingness and it feels so tense; so frightening; so pressuring
The nothingness courses through my soul

I find myself sitting and staring out into the courtyard
I see everything
I see everyone
All
Around
All
Alive
But still a nothingness, but it feels normal.
The nothingness is there, whether empty or full, dark or light

The nothingness is what fuels us.
The nothingness is our muse.
The nothingness is everything.
The nothingness is nothing.