Today

Today I wore a skirt for the first time out in the world since 1999.
Today I wore my emotions on my sleeve for the last time.
Tomorrow I will wake up smiling for it is a new blessed day.
Tomorrow I will go to sleep as all my cares drift away.

Was I Really Meant For This?

As the night grows darker
the air grows colder
And time ticks on
rushing by too fast
Too much to do
until I can sleep at last
The tears start to fall
as the stress levels rise
I seem to give it my all
but as no surprise
I feel defeated every day
in almost every way
And can't help but imagine
if this was my true passion
Or if I am still searching
for something more than this
As if my calling is lurking
beyond in some hidden bliss
No options other than to
simply go on and follow through
With all that stresses me each day
until it all makes sense
or something better comes my way...

You got me thinking..

You got me thinking about
Long walks on the beach
You got me thinking about
A night by the sea
You got me thinking about
So much it's true
You got me thinking about
Nothing other than you

I should be thinking about
My next lesson
I should be thinking about
What day the test's on
I should be thinking about
Algebra II
But all I been thinking about
is you

Reality Strikes

When reality strikes it strikes down hard
Been wishing for so long but living a facade
Arms around, fingers interlocked
Finally a night of mine that rocked
The perfect kiss meant so much to me
But was it the same for thee?
Was it the same feeling deep down inside
A feeling that could transcend time
The feeling I felt when reality struck
Felt so strong it could have only been luck
Fifteen years that feeling crept around
Now I'm spinning so fast I'm about to hit the ground
Didn't want to leave didn't want to go
'Cause if this ain't reality I just don't want to know
What will come of the future
What was meant of the past
What is happening in the present
If this isn't supposed to last.
So when reality struck, it struck down hard
But who's to say that it was reality and not just a facade.

Writer's Block

I got a writer's block the size of a fist
the size of your kiss it's making me pissed
to think that i miss anything you ever said
anything we ever did we were just kids
but I see clearly now i understand it now
I feel it wow
to think I couldn't understand it
a feeling inconceivable
to think I couldn't stop feeling it
a sensation unbelievable
but it was all a lie and that's why I had to say goodbye
I couldn't keep tryin if you wouldn't try
And though the feeling may never die out
at least this writer's block is getting a time out.

best friend

If you're my friend you know it's true
To the end of time I'll care for you
Comfort you
Fight for you
Live for you
Die for you

But in the end when you are gone
Who will be there to help me carry on?
Who's shoulder will I cry on?
Who's laughter will keep me strong?
I guess it's just the price one pays
To be the best friend in any way

A few random witticisms from over the months!

*Goodbye to these emo song lyrics and one liners… Happiness is here.*

*Love is when the awkward silence isn't awkward at all.*

*And all these similes and metaphors make me want more.*

*And all I am to you is just another lunch date, just another mistake.*

*Sometimes I try to lucid dream so that I can feel what it means to truly... be… alive…*

*We risk overlooking things we may have in common when we only look at the differences.*